So! I’ve finally decided to start doing paid-for readings. Having been getting such lovely, positive feedback on my readings for some time now, and actually struggling to fit them all in, I’ve thought yes, I’ve thought no, and I’ve been through the struggle that every professional tarot reader must surely experience. As in, ‘that’s ridiculous! I can’t, like, charge for this!!’
Much has been written on the subject of taking that leap, and overcoming the mental block that surrounds the concept of charging for something like tarot, so I won’t try to re-articulate it all here. For some sound words on this matter, try Christine Jette’s revered tome Professional Tarot. What I want to write about it the rest of the strange soup of feelings I’m currently digesting.
One – sort of embarrassed! Maybe it’s my British self-deprecating tendencies, or a fear of what people will think of me, but the thought of self-promotion just fills me with…ickyness. Strange, because when I see others marketing themselves well, I feel nothing but admiration.
Two – nervous. Not that I don’t put heart and soul into my free readings and abide by a strict code of ethics, but there’s something about reading for free that takes the pressure off a little. I believe my readings are good enough to charge for, but what if others don’t agree? What if put myself out there and then everyone just thinks I’m a load of crap?!
Three – excited! I’ve been wanting to do this for a while, and now seems like a great time. I’m trying to wind down my day job and focus on the things in my life that make me happy and to which I can give my energy and passion. The idea of tarot reading forming a part of that fils me with excitement.
Four – confused. I mean…I’ve never run my own business before. I think I have the nouse to keep my records straight and my schedule organised, but there must be so much I don’t know about yet…
Overall, though, I feel proud. Feelings of nervousness and confusion are surely quite normal, and I’m sure I’ll overcome the embarrassment soon enough. I’m pleased that my tarot practice has reached a point where I feel my readings are worthy of someone’s hard-earned cash, and I’m looking forward to giving them guidance that’s worth every penny.
I’m a 30-something writer, artist, tarot reader, and perpetual explorer of the space between thought, feeling, and action.
I believe that spirituality and ritual are for everybody. I’m about the journey, in all of its messy, non-linear, chaotic iterations. I am excited by anticapitalist business and living with my whole entire self present. I use tarot cards to bring forth hidden truth, and ritual to affirm my commitment, over and over, to my ever-shifting path.