What’s the one thing you’ve always wanted to do, but are afraid to try?
Everyone’s got one – maybe more than one. Even the most confident people have something tucked away which they can’t bring themselves to start. Could be as simple as joining a singing group, could be as big as a total change of career. Somehow, time keeps ticking by, and you just don’t quite manage to get on with it.
The Fool, from the Shadowscapes Tarot, by Stephanie Pui-Mun Law
Sometimes, the only thing to do is to put yourself in a situation where you simply can’t not go through with something.
Jump in the pond, then you’ll *have* to learn to swim. It’s The Fool’s approach, I think. She doesn’t know where she’s going or what lies ahead – and that doesn’t matter. The only thing she’s sure of is that the universe will support her.
I love Stephanie Piu-Mun Law’s illustration (above) of The Fool in the Shadowscapes Tarot. It’s just so liberating – this woman has utter faith in the word around her. There is an exchange of energy going on here. If she is prepared to take a risk, she will be supported. So she enters into the contract with an open mind and an open heart, ready to see what comes next.
Reading tarot at events was feeling that way to me.
It’s something I used to do, really loved, but haven’t done for ages. I knew I wanted to rebuild that part of my business, but I was scared. Then, in the way that you always get what you need in this little town, a friend asked me to do readings at an event at her beauty salon. Argh! Not the opportunity I’ve been waiting for, please god no! So my first instinct was to say ‘oh, no, I’m too rusty, I can’t possibly…’ …but it was far enough in the future that I felt I could say yes and nothing would ever really happen, would it?
So I said yes.
And Saturday afternoon there I was, realising that I couldn’t back out now. I felt nervous. It’s been so long! What if I drew complete blanks, what if nobody liked my readings, what if it was just really, really awkward? I wanted to flake out at the last minute, but I thought of The Fool and carried right on.
I needn’t have worried. The group were in high spirits, excited to be having their cards read, encouraging and willing to engage with their readings. After the first few readings, I felt my old confidence coming back, and by the end of the evening I was buzzing.
Whilst I was happy to be able to offer guidance and insights to a lovely bunch of people, I’m pretty sure that the person who got the most out of the event was me. It taught me, for about the billionth time in my life, that if you want to give something a go, give it a go.
No-one is going to do it for you.
I’m a 30-something writer, artist, tarot reader, and perpetual explorer of the space between thought, feeling, and action.
I believe that spirituality and ritual are for everybody. I’m about the journey, in all of its messy, non-linear, chaotic iterations. I am excited by anticapitalist business and living with my whole entire self present. I use tarot cards to bring forth hidden truth, and ritual to affirm my commitment, over and over, to my ever-shifting path.